Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Bi-Polar Relationship

My Mom has said I've been in this too long to back out.  I don't want to back out, but I like having my options open.  But at the same time, the reason I love being in love is not having to worry about the other "open options".

My relationship has bi-polar disease.

I wish I could blame it all on Him.  Technically, it's his fault that he won't obey me, follow my advice, jump when I say so, won't do This, does That too much.
But I really can't blame Him.  Not Seriously.  Every "problem", real or perceived, that I have with Him, it's actually a problem with Myself.  

Two years.  It's a long time for me.  I'm at a loss as to what comes next.  Will it be good or bad?  Is it up to me at all?  Is this one more thing I should try to control?  How can I have been so right about everything else in my life, but so possibly wrong about this?


3 comments:

Modelmental said...

1. your mom is crazy (sorry mom, but really! 2 years? that's nothing! tell her to read redframe... 10 years baby! and it was actually 12.)
2. don't say it's all your own fault, if you aren't happy/fulfilled, it takes two to tango! don't give up. try and work positively towards being happy with him. and if it doesn't work, move on girlfriend.
3. sorry for the sermon. ;-)

Modelmental said...

ps, i just saw on your profile you're only 26? come on honey, it's never too late to be happy!

Trendygirlbeck said...

ha! that's what I was thinking! Thanks for the encouragement!